2013...

hey im back :) well its been awhile since i wrote something here... i miss you blog :) hehe.. actually i was far from home for about 8 months i had my training in my Papa's province as a nurse... well its kinda hard at first but we're going there later, but first i just want to say thank you to our God i survived this years struggle and my hard works are already paid off... i had my COE (certificate of employement) as a nurse! yippee!!! i am soo happy! :) i will get my COE maybe tomorrow? well anyways yeah! im here at home... and it's only 8 days left and its Christmas!!! wooohooo~! my favorite season<3 Christmas! i dunno im so happy every christmas... with my family, going in church every night for 9 consecutive days.. i hope i can complete it :) it says that if you completed the 9 days of simbang gabi your wish will came true.. i hope soo :)

Anyways my 2013 is kinda hard.. really~ like the first 6 months was so devastating, struggling, depressing, and really sad. as i was saying i've been away at home for about 8 months i had my training in Bicol, it is a province here in Philippines. if you travel by land from manila to catanduanes its l2 hours and 4 hours by Roro it is an Island here in Philippines. its very very beautiful.. it has many beaches and it's non-polluted area unlike here in Manila. I am a nurse there in a district hospital, at first its really really tiring because it's the first time that i worked as a nurse and i don't know how to speak in Bicol. it's like Spanish and its really hard for me because all of them are speaking in Bicol. my colleagues were adjusting to me they speak in Tagalog for me to understand them. but after 3 months i nailed it :)... i can understand a little Bicol and i can speak very little :) i enjoyed my company there. i had few friends from hospital we hangout in our day offs, we're going in the city to eat in our favorite restaurant the Blossoms... god! i miss the blossoms especially their halo-halo and tuna pasta! the best everrr~!!!and also i miss my workmates.. they are so kind to me. i cannot forget my last day at the hospital they throw a party for me. we had videoke machine, it has lots of foods and we had so much fun... i miss them so much :( but its time for me to go home i need to find a real job, i want to work in abroad for the sake of my mama and papa i want to give them a good life to help them, because im their only child. i want them to became proud of me... and i want to do this to myself, for my future.

then i met this one guy.. well i like him alot he's an army i met him in Bicol, he's smart, funny, matured and kinda cute. :) he's one of our patient he was admitted for like 3 days... we became close, he's always calling me, texting me and we see each other sometimes. then he courted me... He actually went on my grand mother's birthday that's the first time i introduced a guy in our family, it really sucks! my uncle was so drunk and he keeps on bugging at him ugh! it's so embarrassing, But its okay with him. i thought everything's gonna be fine between us... but i dont know, he always keeps on telling a story about his ex-girlfriend at first it was okay with me... but after awhile its kinda ugh! i dont know i felt different towards him... i think im falling for him.. and i dont know what to do... there's an incident.. well i just dont want to mention it here, that i woke up... that he was still inlove with her ex-girlfriend, after that i just evaporate to him just like that.. no calls, no replies... because i already fell to him.. .and i cant control myself. i just cant... and it hurts.. until now... :(

Happy Easter Sunday

Hey everyone its already Easter Sunday :) ughhh I just spent my whole Holy Week here in our house. Its kinda boring! Really.. and its killing me because its very hot, also i envy some of my friends that spend their Holy Week in other places like on the beach, their provinces, other country but me here i am stuck in our house. before my family always spend our Holy Week in other places like in our province, resort or in our relatives. But the thing here is the presence of Lord Jesus Christ right??? On how we repent on our sins and be holy like Jesus. Maybe thats one of our mistakes as a Christians we forget the real essence of the sacred week. Instead we enjoyed like out of town with our friends, go to the beach and stuff but we forgot to pray.. to feel sorry to Jesus. Im not a bitter or what.. uhmm okay?! Sort of! Hahaha anyways im just telling the truth. This days is our chance to became Holy right lets have this moment to became one :) anyways i gotta go now im going to the mall later to hunt some Easter Egg! Haha kidding :)) anyways Have a Happy Easter Sunday and Godbless :)

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as a CSR

Hey Everyone! It's been awhile since I wrote on my blog :) Anyways how you guys doin'? I've been in other places and very busy lately. February was a though month for me because i had a work. Though i met some new friends on my past work. Actually last week of January up to February I worked as a Customer Service Representative in Makati. It's really hard for me because the account that we handled is Outbound we're the one who's calling in other places to have some surveys. Yes you heard right! We're surveying some Europeans and sending them some free information on investment strategies. But after a month I resigned because it was so stressful we need to target the quota, Everyday we need to have 3 clients. Oh god! everyday was very hard for me to wake up and go to work because i am not enjoying, and its pressuring me unlike when i was teaching the kids. This one's really different, Before I go to work i'm always thinking do i have to do this?, I am not happy anymore, What on earth am I doing? kinda like that. But i need to and i have to but i don't know why? For my ego? For myself that i started this, That i need to stand for this, Because i chose this?! Something like that. But in the end i ended up nothing i quit on my job. Because it came to a point that i cant do it anymore, I am tired, I am not happy, I am pressured but then i give my best shot but nothing happened. 

Though i met some friends and my co-workers are so kind to me, They're all fun to be with especially our Team Leaders they're so kind and understanding. Especially Team Leader Sandy i think i am her favorite because she's always supporting me unlike the other agents she keeps on cheering me up especially if i don't have any clients or "numbers". She always giving me some instructions and encouraging words like "You can do it, At first it's very hard but you can deal with it" stuff like that (oh god! i miss them badly). Our TLs are very approachable and kind but seriously some of our co-workers doesn't like our Team Leaders but i don't want to drop names in here they might read this hahaha and i don't understand why are they angry at them? Maybe because our Team Leaders are kind to me and to my friend that's why it doesn't bother me, Anyways it's not my problem anymore lol. 

I had this crush he's my Team Leader, My First Team Leader hihihihi he's not that charming but i can say he's good looking, he's kinda badass! he's tall, dark and he's got a Jej? hahaha (Jej: pretending to be swag) lol kidding. but really he's kinda cute but he's already married he's already a father and  i stalked him on his Facebook account. he also had this big tattoo on his neck it's a rose actually it's kinda weird to see a "rose tattoo" on a guys neck hahaha and really he has lot of tattoos. Before i went to his team I already noticed him because we had this floor tour with some newbies before then me, my friend and one of our co-newbie was wearing eyeglasses then he asked "Are you guys sisters or something? because you all wearing eyeglasses" and we're like "No we're not". Then after that we distribute in our Teams I went to his Team, then he interviewed me about my past works, about my resume and stuff and he asked me if can i tutor him in English because he's not good in it. I was like "you're working in a call center and you don't know English? are you kidding me??" oh well that's a tactic you know what am i talking about don't you?haha. But he's very kind he's keep on checking on me "Are you okay Nina?, How's your day?" something like that. He's also approachable and saying some encouraging words. I remember when he told us his story the first time he got a client he was like screaming because he was so happy. I remember that i laughed at him because he's reaction was very funny. But after 3 days we re-arrange and i went to TL Sandy's team which is relieving for my part because it was less pressure because i'm with the other newbies unlike on my first Team I'm with the Best agents and i need to compete on their loud voice so that my client can hear me clearly. He's very kind even if he's not my Team Leader anymore if he saw me he's smiling at me and so do I. I also remember his Jeje outfit wearing a huge color green shirt and an orange new era cap to make him swag? but he's not really.

My friend had this huge crush on our co-worker he looks like John Mayer but a dirty version of John Mayer. actually he's good looking really! but the way he dressed, the way he talked oh god! it's a no no. i want to make-over him because he's a gorgeous man. but the way he talks, he's voice is like a bat or something, a small creature i guess? he sounds like a dwarf because he has a small voice haha im getting meaner now lol. but i will admit i'm kinda attractive to him because my friend keeps on saying "oh! he's really cute, he's really charming" she keeps on saying that when she woke up, before she sleeps ugh!!!! it's irritating but it's true he's charming but ugh!!! my friend doesn't know that i like that guy too hahahaah oh my i wish she cant read this or else i'm totally dead because i'm pretending that i don't like that guy because he's a gambler! he's a cock fighter really?! and it's terrible. i don't know what happened to me maybe because my friend keeps on saying that he's cute and stuff that's why i get developed? or influenced by her words? what the fck am i talking about?!hahahaha. it's kinda weird but it's true. 

Our campaign manager there was very kind and approachable too. but he's kinda scary i don't know but ugh! he keeps on staring at me and to my friend, even my friend noticed that. he keeps on shouting our name "Go Nina! Go Meg! Go Koreans!!!" and we're like What the hell can you please shut up?! we're working here since then our co-workers are calling us Koreans. because our campaign manager knows that we used to teach Koreans before. I heard one of our co-worker, he asked his gay friend if i'm Half-Korean and he said "No she's not a Korean, she's Half-German Half-Shepherd" and it cracks me up hahaha. Back to my story most of the times our campaign manager go to our booth and ask while i was working "what is the Korean of this? or this?" But it's okay for me because i want to teach Korean i want to share my knowledge, But it's weird because we're working right? But he's kind really he is. Sometimes i'm kinda pissed off to him because he's always shouting "Give me some numbers!!!!" and really it's pressuring me especially if i don't have any client on that day, It's kinda upsets me. 


After our work we had this daily habit that we need to eat or drink some cup of milk before we sleep so that we will have some good sleep. when we woke up we need to cook our packed lunch because we don't want to spend money. I also miss riding on the MRT and chatting with our co-workers we had this funny session always especially with Jacque. By the way we had this phone name and my phone name was Nina Gilbert I got my first name from The Vampire Diaries lead actress Nina Dobrev and i got my last name Gilbert from the last name of her character there Elena Gilbert. BTW i'm a huge fan of The Vampire Diaries if you dont know <3


After we resigned it has lots of issues that came out and it has this issue including me and my friend but i don't wanna talk about it. After i heard that news i don't know if i'm going to believe them, the people in there. If they are real to us or they are just making fun of us or something. I don't care it's done already, whether they are true to us or not i don't care because i did my job and i did what is the best for me.


Though I missed that alot of things, I miss being independent, I miss the dorm, I miss my friend Meg, I miss my crushes ugh! My other co-worker. but its all done and nothing happened but the thought of it was I learned alot. I learned to be independent, I learned how to make my own decision alone without anyone's help and it's kinda achievement for me, though i am not became successful in there. My good friend told me that if you have a problem or bad things happened to you don't regret it, don't curse it because it will help you as a person, it will help you to grow as a person and learn from your mistakes. which I truly understand now :)


it's 4:41 in the morning here i need to sleep :) Goodnight I mean Good morning :)

wala lang magawa....

since it's already morning uhm.. i don't have any specific topic now like uhm... kung ano nalang mag pop-up sa mind ko ayun nalang isusulat ko. because i promised that hindi na ako makakalimot magsulat sa blog ko. anyways it's my first time to write in "Tagalog" here on my site so wala lang :) anyways i talked to much. yesterday i went out with my good friend we went in mall of asia, wala lang stroll around, chika-chika then we ate together. ibang iba na pala after you graduated noh?! unlike before pag-ipunan mo lang you'll have a lot of money na like you can buy anything you want. you don't even care to buy this or buy that because it's your own savings plus the fact that it's from your allowance that your parents gave to you diba? unlike if you have your own money from your work. sobrang mahirap gastusin kase alam mo na pinaghirapan mo. ang weird lang kase diba nahihirapan tayo gastusin yung perang galing mismo saaten pero andali lang mag waste ng money if its from our parents to think na mas nakakahiya yon diba? kase hingi tayo ng hingi sa parents naten na "Yo Momma! i want to buy this... buy that.. blah.. blah..." we have lots of reasons para lang mabili naten yun. pero mas nakakahiya yun diba? hindi naten pinaghirapan pero ginagastos naten. it's just that.... maybe we don't care bout that because we're not matured enough to think about it. unlike now right?. some people would tell to me that. "bakit kelangan mo pa maghanap ng job? andyan naman parents mo diba?" before i was like "Oo nga, andyan naman si Erpats para bigay lahat ng gusto ko" but now if i remembered that i would just like WTF!!! ang tanda ko na ang laking asa ko pa din sa Momma and Pops ko. anyways enough of that. diba?? my point is that at some point in our life nagmamature na din tayo may mga bagay na tayo na dati hindi naten naiisip pero ngayon palang naten naiisip. napapaisip ako what if matagal na ako ganito mag-isip mas mapapadali siguro yung life ko. kase i know how to decide for myself. it's just that mas madame na sana ako pera ngayon kase mas matipid ako. hahahaha diba? pag naiisip ko palang mga gastos ko nung college nanghihinayang na ako. pero it's okay atleast i learned, and sa lahat naman ng ginawa ko naging happy ako. kase sa lahat ng Happenings with my friends halos andun ako. lol anyways imma bout to sleep Goodmornight errbody :) xoxo

what is up 2012!!!!

hey errbody! so this is my first blog for the year how you guys doing?oh BTW! Happy New Year Everyone!so how's your Holidays? is it fun? or great? or boring? or so..so? oh well! my holidays was so..so.. i had my friends with me, they celebrate their Christmas at home and also with my close relatives last new year :). i am just curious because every new year was a bit intriguing to me because we have lots of New Year's Resolution right? like for example, some of my friends will told me that they will go on a diet. but after 3 weeks okay! back to normal again. some of them were like i want to have a healthy lifestyle i need to quite smoking or drinking alcohol, but after 2 weeks or 2 days there it is! they'll go back to normal. it's kinda sucks right? why do they need to say those things if they don't do it. why do they need to tell that in front of the others if they're not going to stand for it. if you will promise to do that you need to stand for it. because it's for you right? it's for your own benefit. some will say that no it's not easy! oh yes!!! there's no such EASY THING in this world! if you want it then strive for it, go for it! it's kinda weird because some of them was like announcing it in public that Ha! i need to loose weight or i need to became sexy. anyways stop that nonsense thing lol. about me? i just want to have a good job, a smooth skin and a lovelife for this year :) wish me luck guys. but i think the two of those resolution was depend to God if he wanted me to have it then go! if it's not  yet... well! i am willing to wait :) i saw my planner last year and i think i made a good job. some of my big plan  happened but one of them was not. and that's my Board Examination, i failed on my exam. anways it's all done, it already happened but for now i just want to have a new life. i just want to do what i want to do. i just want to be independent. and i just want to be happy and to have a productive year. hope it'll come and i am excited for it! let's go 2012 show me whatcha got!!!!! Cheers!!!!

lot of things on my mind.

i had lot of things on my mind this couple of weeks. i dont know how to start but all i know is that i am sad. i cant even go outside though im always going out with my friends. i had this so called "anti-social attitude" this days. i dont know why maybe because of my previous problem thay until now i cant cope up with it. i cant hardly brearj if remembered that. i cant even share it to my friends and it really sucks to deal with this all by myself. i know that i can cope up with this. i dont know where can i find my peace of mind... i just want it badly

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it's not a goodbyes

I've been busy this couple days that's why i don't have a time to write on my blog. because my Best Friend has this so called "Surprise Thingy" for us she didn't told us anything about her plan to work in abroad. after she got her approvals and visa she's now ready to go to Singapore. I was so shocked because we're always together like everyday and she didn't tell anything about it that's why i'm a little sad and upset. but it's okay it's for her own good it's for her future and family right?. i think that in our life some people will stay and some of them will go because they have to. there's no permanent in our life and i understand it now. after she leave my other close friend will go back in states for good. yes! two of my closest friends will go and leave me...awesome huh?! but it's for them, it's for their future. at first it's kinda weird because why on earth?! they going to have a good future now but me. :( what the hell! but i understand now that all people has their own future. maybe it's not yet my time i just need to be patient, god has many plan for me. i know he will give the best for me delays are not denials. of course we will meet again if we have stable life and im excited for that :3